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[18 Jul 2006|12:32am] |
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Today was a crappy day at the office. My boss, Gretchen, let this silly new-girl, Jamie, run her article in the August issue instead of mine. We have been working at VeRB almost the same amount of time and it drives me crazy to see her always get the upper hand in office politics. I am just as talented as she is and just as qualified as well. Gretchen never seems to notice anything I do around the office and it is slowly starting to get to me. Why is nothing I ever do enough? Yet again, I have to sit idly by and try to please Gretchen until I am blue in the face to receive nothing in return. When will I be respected as much as I deserve?
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[13 Jul 2006|12:39am] |
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Ken from finance messaged me this evening. Just seeing him and him wanting to talk to me made me feel so special. I feel like we could talk for hours on end. I think I need to ask him to go for coffee one of these days. I know this cute little place just off 5th Avenue I can take him to. One day I will...
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[29 May 2006|11:57am] |
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I tried to give a presentation the other day when I was seriously emotionally distraught. It wasn't pretty. I learned my lesson: if you are highly emotionally stressed, don't give a presentation in front of your entire department. I was really embarrassed. I'm glad Eric was able to talk me down from the roof. He is such an amazing individual and I'm really going to miss him.
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[01 May 2006|07:38pm] |
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how can i be lost if no one is trying to find me?
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| it hurts... |
[19 Jan 2006|11:08pm] |
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i just cant admit to him, or myself, that i am not real.
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| guilt with a side of praise |
[06 Jan 2006|02:18am] |
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today i had a talk with two of my bosses whom i respect very much. We were discussing how i live my life and if i was making myself happy. what is happy? i think i am happy, we all think we are happy, but aren't we all sick of the "i am happy" game?
one of my bosses asked me if i ever feel guilty about all the myspace emails i get from guys, and i begining to think she is right. I am falling for this one guy who is sending me real emails about his life and how similar we are. he is always praising me and makes me feel good about who i am. yet, the fact remains that he wants to meet me. I feel terrible knowing that i could never talk with him in person because i feel that a face to face connection would ruin what we have. I want an inbox lover, i don't want to lose him.
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[04 Jan 2006|11:02pm] |
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i now have atleast six myspace suitors! it is unbelievable! in the past two weeks all the attractive 20 somethings have been pouring out of the woodwork wanting to talk to me of all people.
i've gotten a phone number and a guy who wants to take me out for drinks!
unbelievable.
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| teh. |
[22 Dec 2005|08:14pm] |
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i'm in love with this guy that found me on myspace. is that bad?
he's kinda cute which doesn't hurt...
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[15 Dec 2005|07:50pm] |
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how dare her call me vain?! its not her place.
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[10 Dec 2005|10:12am] |
oh, how i do love a dinner date with audrey! its just fun to get all dressed up with nowhere to go.
audrey baby, i love you!
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| what have i done to deserve this? |
[04 Dec 2005|10:51am] |
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Perhaps, Perhaps - cake |
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well let me just say, i have some of the best friends ever. who else would help me clean all the snow off of my car just because i am wearing heels and a skirt and she doesnt want me to catch pneumonia? and on top of THAT, sit through a concert for the three minutes that i was involved in? AND take me out to eat at one of my FaVoRiTe restaurants and then spend the rest of the day at my favorite shops? i dont deserve people being nice to me. i havent done anything that deserves this attention.
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[02 Dec 2005|04:27pm] |
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there is something really sexy about driving another male co-worker home as the lust of your life looks on longingly
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| emerald green and high heels |
[20 Nov 2005|08:33pm] |
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last friday was wonderful, i really came out of my shell...
i want to do everything i can to be there for her, but i dont think everything i am able to do will be enough. i dont want to disappoint her. she is my everything.
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[18 Nov 2005|04:59pm] |
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tonight is a full frontal prowling night. i am going to get some action if it kills me.
i know eric is going to be there, and i know i am going to look damn sexy.
no regrets.
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| anything but disapointed |
[09 Nov 2005|10:22pm] |
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just a quick post to say i love my job. it was hard to move away from chicago at first, but i think i am finally finding myself. today i had this huge presentation in front of this man that i am always trying to impress. for whatever reason, he dominates my life and i just cant seem to get him out of the picture. so as i was up there doing what i do best, he suddenly faded from view. it wasn't: karen, you need to impress him, but it was more like: karen, you need to do this for yourself. and surprisingly, i did. with both this presentation and the article on music i had to perfect last week, i have learned that i am capable of doing things because i want to, not because someone is telling me i should be.
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[27 Oct 2005|11:10pm] |
uglysinglesclub: you've never met karen
him: yes i have
uglysinglesclub: when?
him: last night
him: she was good
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| love...honest love |
[18 Sep 2005|10:30pm] |
i just recieved a HUGE bonus from my boss simply because she loves me.
what do i say to her?
better yet, what do i do with it?
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[12 Sep 2005|09:31pm] |
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i am losing myself. i dont know who i am anymore and it scares me.
i need to FIND myself.
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